A Single Object
October 21, 2022
Isn't it interesting that a singular object can hold a million memories? It can bring back those memories like a wave crashing over you.
Small little fact about my family. We love blankets! In the cold months we have them all over the house to snuggle up in. Last April Donovan went and bought himself an amazing blanket as he was just starting out with his treatment for stage IV Hodgkin's Lymphoma. One that was so amazing, I went and bought my own. That blanket went back and forth to Boston with us. I cuddled up in it after his treatments and it kept me happy and warm. It was the perfect item from home to have while we stayed in The Boston House all those months. Whatever I could do to just stay focused and happy, that's what I did for the both of us.
As you can imagine, that blanket has a million memories attached to it. Some good and some bad. But they are there and ready to be rediscovered whenever the time comes. Its warmth and kind memories of us being safe and cared for along with the sickness and uncertainty that we might have tried to bury deep in the back of our mind are all there. Each day since we received the news in August that he was in remission, I find a feeling pop up unexpectedly. I try to hold space for those feelings and allow them to flow. It's hard but a necessary part of my healing. I try to remind my son that those feelings are normal and should be dealt with when the time comes. But who am I to tell an 18 year old what he should do?
So last night, now that the cold weather is back, I brought out my blanket. I wrapped myself up in it and all those memories came flooding back. Sure, I could have dwelled on all the crap, sadness, and hurt we both went through. Sure I cried! But I cried tears of pure happiness and joy! I remembered how strong we were and how we won the fight. This morning I walked around the house for a bit with my blanket wrapped around me like a cape. I felt like a superhero for a moment.
I wish you all Peace, Love and Light. May you find happiness and joy today!
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